| June 24th, 2003 |
[Wed 27 May @ 8:18pm] |
Damn. I cut myself today, and it still hurts. I hate getting cuts on my fingers; they take forever to heal.
Sadly enough, this is the most exciting thing I have to talk about.
[Private to Ginny]
Do you think we can get together and talk sometime?
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| June 23rd, 2003 |
[Sat 16 May @ 9:22pm] |
[Private to the DA]
I'm glad the meeting went well. Quite the turn-out.
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Now I just have to worry about Viktor talking to Harry. Maybe he's right and I should try to go away with Ron... It just seems so irresponsible right now.
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I'm so tired... Just of everything.
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| June 22nd, 2003 |
[Sat 25 Apr @ 10:39am] |
[Private, Viktor can read]
I feel like everything's going wrong lately. I'm just messing everything up. I can't catch up at work, I don't feel like I'm accomplishing anything in the Order, and my personal life is falling to pieces. I hate fighting with Ron. I'm not sorry for what I did, because there is nothing wrong with dancing with my friends, but I am sorry for what it caused. It's so hard to talk to Ron sometimes. He doesn't have to get so jealous over everything. I do try to avoid things that might make him jealous, but I can't think of everything.
But it's more than just Ron. I know I don't have very many friends. Harry, Ron, Ginny, and Viktor are really my closest, the ones I feel like I can really talk to about things. But I feel like I'm losing them. I seem to annoy Harry and Ginny more often than not. I do try not to involve them when I fight with Ron; Lord knows I hate it when I get in the center of Ron and Harry's fights. But it seems like they're both drifting away from me, even outside of that aspect. Harry didn't even tell me about restarting the DA. It was always his project, but we used to talk about things like that. We live in the same apartment, and it never came up till he mentioned it in his journal. That's really just the latest thing, though.
I just want to go away for a while. I can't afford to take a vacation, though, not with everything going on right now. And going away on my own is depressing. I'd almost like to go somewhere alone with Ron, but I really can't do that. Can I? We haven't... But I just want to work things out.
Why can't I just work things out?
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| June 21st, 2003 |
[Tue 31 Mar @ 8:29pm] |
I tend to read sappy romance novels whenever Ron and I fight. It's a silly thing to do, really. Men are never that perfect in real life, and I either end up more frustrated, or sobbing over the really touching scenes. I've worked my way through most of Jane Austen by now, but I don't think I'm up to the Bronte sisters. They're too depressing. Even Jane Eyre with its happy ending is just too dark right now.
Visiting Mum and Dad is nice, though I do wish work hadn't loaded me down with so many reports. I have a weekend off, and I'm supposed to be spending time with my parents, but I have this pile of papers staring at me every time I go past my bedroom. I should just forget about them, but it's hard to. Not to mention telling my boss on Monday that I didn't do anything with them won't be fun.
Perhaps I'll stay up late tonight after Mum and Dad have gone to bed. I've gotten a lot of practice in going without sleep.
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| June 18th, 2003 |
[Sun 1 Mar @ 11:19am] |
I think the Ministry has run an executive order requiring that all of its lackeys be up to their eyeballs in work. I'm not sure how else the workload has tripled in the past few days. I thought we were finally catching up, when all of a sudden paperwork explodes from out of the nether.
At least I'm off early tonight, which means I get to straggle out by seven instead of by nine. Though my boss will probably ask me to take some work home with me. I wonder if there's any wine in the flat? It might make reports a little more bearable.
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| June 15th, 2003 |
[Sun 15 Feb @ 5:57pm] |
The only down point to the wedding (besides Sirius sneaking in as Padfoot and giving me a heart attack) was Ron. He's so infuriating at times! He acts like by dancing with a few friends, I'm somehow cheating on him. Perhaps if he had danced with me more than twice the entire night, I wouldn't have danced as much with other people.
Well, no, not really, because I wouldn't have turned down a friend, but he still has no right to get angry with me. If we hadn't been at a wedding, I would have really given him a piece of my mind.
I think there are enough leftovers to last for a week. Mrs. Weasley gave us quite a bit of it, so I don't think we'll have to worry about cooking for a bit.
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[Wed 28 Jan @ 4:29pm] |
Mrs. Weasley has already started crying a few times, and it's not even started. Ginny, I think you're going to have to elope, or else your mother will have a nervous breakdown.
Then again, she might have a heart attack if you do. Wonder if I should be thankful Ron will take five hundred years to ask me to marry him. If he ever does.
I think there's enough food here to feed a small army. And... Oh no, the twins are carrying something. I think I'll go intercept them before Mrs. Weasley sees them.
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[Tue 16 Sep @ 7:58pm] |
[Private]
I don't know how I feel about Percy as Minister. He's responsible, he's determined, I know he'll put a lot of effort into it... But there's just something that's not quite right. It's almost like he's able to shut off his emotions when he thinks they get in the way, and it's a bit creepy. Yet Penny's his polar opposite.
I don't know. Things are just so strange lately; maybe that's why it bothers me.
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I have to get my dress ready for the wedding. It hasn't been aired since my cousin's wedding three years ago; it probably smells like moth balls. Hannah, did you get the cake sorted out, or shall we have an emergency bake-off?
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[Wed 6 Aug @ 7:04pm] |
[Private to the Order]
Ginny and I are taking turns standing guard on the door. The shouting's finally died down, but I think we'll give them at least another hour before we see if they've decided to be sensible or if they're just sulking.
At least everyone was distracted by Sirius' return. I don't think anyone even noticed when we dragged Ron and Harry away. And now everyone's gone home except for Sirius, and I doubt he'll mind. I may get him to stand a turn as guard, actually. He'd probably be pretty good at taunting them into making up.
Of course, after this, it'll just remain to see how long it takes for either to forgive me.
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[Sat 2 Aug @ 2:51pm] |
I'm so glad Ron and I finally got a chance to talk, even if it did take exploding at one another to do it. Still, everything's better now. I'm glad we weren't fighting for Charlie and Hannah's wedding; that would've been really depressing.
That reminds me; I've promised to help Mrs. Weasley clean up over the next few days after work. She's so worried that everything's not going to be perfect for the wedding. I don't know how things can be perfect when the entire Weasley clan is involved; there's always some sort of disaster. But it's always interesting, and ends up being a load of fun even without being perfect.
[Private to Ginny]
Talk to me before the Order meeting tomorrow. I've got an idea.
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[Sat 19 Jul @ 11:14am] |
Remind me not to try to appeal to a boy's rationality and sense of fair play. They haven't got any.
[Order of the Phoenix]
I'll be visiting my parents the weekend after Charlie and Hannah's wedding. It's so strange to think of one of my classmates married. Yes, we're all old enough and some are engaged, but actually married is another thing entirely. Ron took so long to even ask me out, I probably won't get married till I'm forty. Harry, have you and Ginny set a date yet? You know Mrs. Weasley is going to be anxious for the next wedding after this one's over.
I think I'm the only person without a hangover this morning from the bachelorette party. Well, I don't think Luna will have one either. She didn't seem to be drinking very much, either.
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| June 6th, 2003 |
[Sun 22 Jun @ 11:42am] |
[Private to Ron]
We need to talk.
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[Private to Harry]
Are you feeling better?
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Let's see. I have to go grocery shopping tonight after work, and then there's dinner to make. Harry, you'll help out with that, right? I have a pile of paperwork I'm working on outside of the office, too, trying to get everything caught up. There's so much that just needs to be resorted and filed, and we have to figure out what's still missing and see if the other offices or even countries might have a copy we could replace it with. If not, we have to fill out forms about why it's missing and set up new documents and meetings to replace everything... It's a royal mess.
Mum and Dad have asked me to come visit next weekend. Even though we're so busy, it's hard to say no. I don't want to worry them, and I haven't seen them in quite some time. I should really go. I don't know if I want to ask Ron along or not, though.
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| June 3rd, 2003 |
[Fri 25 Apr @ 5:21pm] |
[Hexed Against Ron & Harry]
I hate it when they get like this. They both just let things stew until they explode, and then I'm stuck in the middle trying to pick up the pieces. I don't want to take sides, but if I say anything for or against either, they think I am taking the other's side, and suddenly I'm the bad guy. It's always over something so stupid, too.
It's even worse this time after I fought with Harry not too long ago. We've made up, but that's just underneath the surface, and you know one or the other is going to bring it up. Sometimes I really just... I don't know. I don't know how to deal with it.
I wish Ginny wasn't so busy. She at least understands how stubborn they both are.
You know, I think they can handle dinner on their own tonight. I'm going out to eat by myself.
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| May 31st, 2003 |
[Thu 17 Apr @ 7:39pm] |
[Private]
I am quite possibly the most horrible friend in the world. How could I not know that Viktor was seeing someone? I didn't even really think it was a possibility after Emiliya, at least not for a while. And Gabrielle Delacour! I wonder if she's like her sister? I've never really spoken to her. Fleur's not a bad sort, but not the type I'd ever have imagined Viktor with. I suppose some people might, since she's part Veela and all, but not anyone who knows Viktor well. I've always imagined Gabrielle as a younger Fleur; she certainly looks a lot like her.
I haven't even done anything for Harry and Ginny's engagement, and they're two of my best friends. Should I talk to Ron and see if we should do something, or just go on my own? OPr perhaps Mrs. Weasley... We could throw a little party for them; I'm sure she'd help me with that. Though I hope she doesn't take that engagment as a reason to pressure Ron. Not that I have anything against that, but it's far too soon. And even if it weren't, I wouldn't Ron to feel like he has to. I'd want him to want to ask me.
It's been an age since we had some time alone, though. Perhaps next time Harry goes to Ginny's, we'll both be free. Everything's been so crazy lately, we hardly get to see one another. And somehow being trapped together in a collapsing building for two days doesn't scream of romance.
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[Private to Harry]
Harry? Any plans coming up?
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| May 29th, 2003 |
[Mon 31 Mar @ 4:10pm] |
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It's strange to think that the Ministry is no longer there. Well, it is there, but it's mostly rubble. The clean-up effort is going to take ages. And all the people lost... I suppose it's all been said before, but it's hard to think on anything else right now. I've never been very good at distracting myself and thinking of other things. It does make you want to reconnect with people, though. Solve old problems and talk to old friends.
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| May 24th, 2003 |
[Thu 24 Jan @ 2:21pm] |
Ugh, this place needs to be cleaned yet again. I wonder if Mrs. Weasley would teach me some of the spells she uses. It's so tiresome having to do it all by hand, when there's so many other things to do. I've found a few handy tricks, but so far, I just don't seem to be keeping up. [Still legible through the scratch-out.] If only the boys would take an interest in keeping things neat, I might possibly be more successful.
[Private to Remus]
I'd like to speak with you privately, if I may.
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| May 19th, 2003 |
[Tue 13 Nov @ 7:44pm] |
[Private to Harry and Ron]
When can we meet, just the three of us? I've got the translation.
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| May 7th, 2003 |
[Tue 30 Oct @ 4:31pm] |
I'm so incredibly busy these days, it hardly feels like I have a moment for myself! Not to mention that the boys never go grocery shopping. Ginny, I would have thought your mother would have made sure your brothers helped about the house; what's Ron's excuse?
I did finally get that old corn chip smell out. How is that a place where young men live always smells like old, stale corn chips, even when there don't seem to be any in the place? And Ron, you can quit complaining about the air fresheners, because lavender is much better than socks.
Boys.
[Private to Harry & Ron]
I've made a bit of headway on those runes we got in the Department of Mysteries, but a number of these are really obscure. It's either going to take me ages of looking through library books or consulting an expert.
If I don't say what it's for, mind if I consult my old Ancient Runes professor?
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[Sun 14 Oct @ 4:13pm] |
I still don't really get the whole appeal of Quidditch. I went at school mostly because Harry was playing and then later Ron and then it got to be kind of a habit. I'm just not much of a sports person, I guess.
Yes, I'll be going to the game today. I just thought I'd mention that if I still have to have one or two things explained to me, that's why.
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[Sat 29 Sep @ 10:06pm] |
Well, I know being chewed out by two different people certainly made my day.
[Private to Harry, Ron, & Ginny]
Do you really think people are being so unreasonable, attempting to get their worries and frustrations out in a safe medium before push comes to shove? Yes, we all joined the Order, and we all knew there'd be battles, but we're not grizzled warriors, we have emotions, and occasionally we want to show them. Is that so wrong?
Merlin. Maybe I'm being overly sensitive, but I really thought Remus and Bill would have a bit more sense than that.
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[Private to Ron]
I'm not that weak, am I?
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| April 27th, 2003 |
[Mon 24 Sep @ 3:15pm] |
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It seems like all I ever do anymore is write about what bad news there is and how horrible it all seems... Does nothing good ever happen anymore? Even if we were always managing to insert ourselves into trouble, the world seemed a lot safer and less depressing when we were in school. And that wasn't so terribly long ago. I never thought I'd be one to miss "the good old days."
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| April 20th, 2003 |
[Sat 25 Aug @ 5:17pm] |
Some days my job is simply fascinating. Other days I spend hours filling out paperwork and editing other peoples'. I've had a week of the latter, and while I know it's all important and that someone has to do it, there are days I wish I could skip over five years of my life and get the seniority to gain a position that at least has more interesting paperwork.
[Private to the Order]
Have we really had no warnings of these attacks? It seems impossible that we could know absolutely nothing of their plans. Poor Hestia... It's quite alarming, that one of our own, and such a capable woman, is really gone. I think it's still sinking in; I admired her greatly.
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